Writing about Writing

by Loolwa Khazzoom • April 4, 2010 • Keeping It Raw

Focus. Stay focused. People don’t understand when you cross over. Chronic pain Jewish multicultural education writing radical feminism dance wha?? huh?? Streamline. Focus. Market. Target. Manifest.

But my soul is tired. Because it’s all flowing like colorful ribbons threads connecting one to another. I don’t want to explain anymore. I DON’T WANT TO EXPLAIN ANYMORE. I want to express and let them be confused let them judge let them MISUNDERSTAND.

I started writing because it was that or suicide. Witness chronicle process call out enact or die. I started writing because I became aware of how different I was. And I thought, “Uh oh.”

And I figured that if I kept going the way I was going and nobody understood shit about where I was coming from, I might end up in some straight jacket somewhere at some time. I see how they treat people who see.

So I had to rise to the top. I had to come down from the mountain. I had to translate. I had to find the language crossing between the creative life force of knowing, of just being and doing, and the ordinary mind. Explain my actions and behaviors that seemed so odd to so many. Tracing the threads through all their complexities and tangles and interwoven madness.

Fuck it. Fuck it. I feel fear writing raw. Fuck it.

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Loolwa KhazzoomLoolwa Khazzoom has worked with leading media outlets, including The New York Times, CNN, Rolling Stone, and ABC News. In addition, she has published two books and has lectured at prestigious venues including Barnard Center for Research on Women, the Simon Wiesenthal Center, and Harvard University. Loolwa is passionate about health, music, dance, multiculturalism, and Judaism.

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Loolwa Khazzoom is a a public relations manager specializing in holistic media, holistic marketing, holistic public relations, and holistic promotions. Her services include branding and messaging development, image and communications management, website content development and optimization, social media management, traditional media campaign management, book development, and in-house writing and editing.

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